Somehow, I always get really pensive on the train. I guess the only good thing really about having a blackberry is that you can use it to record down your thoughts when you're totally having verbal diarrhea about a random subject that is bothering you. =] So here are entries I never bloggeddd ahh.........Need to get it out of my system. =] -------------------------------
7.18 Its weird how i never realized all those times i was annoyed at my mother for being overly nice and protective of me that i would slowly but surely turn out to be the exact same way.....welll almost. i watched batman today with my little brother at the theatre by my house. We in in a small quiet suburban neighborhood so we didnt have any fancy schmancy theatre with stadium seating or anythign like that. So when a huge guy sat in front of my little broter, i kept asking him to switch seats with me, kept asking him if he could see the screen or if we can both get up and move else where. Of course i knew, even before i had asked that he would say no.....too shy to be in the center of annoyance of a packed theatre for the 10 seconds he would have blocked less than 1/50th of their respective views in order to stand up and move. yet i kept asking him anyway, ......essentially i was being the overly protective, overly caring, overly loving and ultimately overly annoying big sister that reminded him so much of our mom;s controlling voice.....at least this one time, he knows he can defy the request. i have no such power over him. its amazing how big things can be realized throguh small, seemingly insignificant moments. i stopped asking him to move once the movie got to a half way point. I let him have his way and stick to his own decisions. (even though i knew there was a better alternative). Mom wouldve never let him do that---not even for somethign as insgnificant as this ---a small deal to her, but a big deal to an 11-year old. Sister knows better =] | 
